flyover
fly.
But first...
This is what I needed.
A huge thanks to the @irunwithgoatz community for letting me hang with them yesterday at the GOATz Trail Runs. Plus I had some time to stretch the legs and get some gravel hill repeats in.
Reason #619 why I love the trail community: There is this unbelievable ability to have your spirits raised when you're around like minds.
Onward.
#trailrunning #running #goatz #nebraska #health #fitness #fit #bocogear #volunteering #runkc
The mind is a wicked web that we weave throughout our time here.
It's been two weeks since I was in Arizona. My body feels alright, I'm not eating enough, but I'm not broken.
My headspace is a mess.
I'm not a person who will compete to win races, I openly (happily) accept that, but I'm also a person who doesn't find failure very often. In fact...if I'm being transparent...failure is the anti-thesis to my obsession with perfection. Perfection doesn't mean everything is in fact perfect, but it means the plan and execution of the plan worked.
I'm not familiar with a plan not working.
I'm still struggling.
Acceptance of being in over my head was relatively easy. Accepting that something went wrong that I hadn't planned for had completely messed me up. I've avoided social media as a whole. Training has been absolutely awful this past week, running is something at the moment that I dread, and that is tough when your friends are doing incredible things around you. It brings about the idea of being a recluse, retreating...hiding. You want to support, cheer, and congratulate, but you also want to become invisible for a while.
Today was a different day. I did not go to work because I took a mental health day, this being due to three panic attacks in four days (just being honest). I changed my music selection on Spotify. I cooked a full meal at home. I drank a lot of water, and as the photo notes, I ate a lot of food.
I preach to my students that failure is something that we need in order to grow. I feel hypocritical saying that because I have such a hard time accepting failure.
I was reading about @tatacalde7 from @forbes this evening. Besides her perspective and auto racing, it was her insight on knowing that we want to live in immediate gratification or immediate success that caught my attention. I am guilty of that, constantly, and in the love/hate reality of ultra running, you will never receive that immediate success.
Writing is where I go when there is all the things trapped inside of me. It's vulnerability, but also therapy in its own right. Plus, a reminder that we're not alone, and everyone struggles.
#ultramarathon #running #training #health
+4 days since Flagstaff Sky Peaks 50k attempt:
I've learned things about my body since then. The lag time of exhaustion is about two days. Nearing 11:00 AM in the middle of class yesterday everything came crashing down. Energy, movement, all dropped rapidly. Hunger increased exponentially, my emotions were absolutely out of control, and all I wanted was sleep... ...so much so that I was late to @physedkc tonight (see: photo by @darci_daugherty). I tell myself that it "was only 18 miles" on Saturday. At the same time I'm just embarrassed by how long it is actually taking to get my feet back under me, and my head back into reality.
#ultramarathon #running #training #trailrunning #rest #health #fit #fitness #runkc
I took a royal beating today at @aravaiparunning Flagstaff Sky Peaks 50k.
Let's start with the annoying news:
-I received my DNF at mile 18
-I fell hard at mile 2 learning how to board
Now, the kicking good news:
-Nutrition was spot on
-Hydration was perfect -Gear was top notch
-I started a race well above my elevation threshold and successfully climbed even higher
-All the @physedkc strength training put my legs in incredible shape. They never failed me.
-All the @team_sparkle_productions running logs kept my endurance in check
This was easily the hardest thing I have ever attempted, and I will be back next year to finish this monster.
#trailrunning #ultramarathon #training #health #fitness #runkc #arizona #bocogear #ruhner
Welp...
It's been 4 months of solid training since North Fork. I still want to be a mountain runner from the Midwest, so tomorrow I'll give all the training a go at @aravaiparunning Flagstaff Sky Peaks 50k.
#trailrunning #training #runkc #running #ultramarathon #ruhner #bocogear #health #fitness
That's a wrap!
Including the North Fork 50k, I have logged approximately 400 miles worth of running in just under these past 4 months.
Average humidity: Death.
Average temperature: Death.
Today's 25 miles on the treadmill were the final piece heading into @aravaiparunning Flagstaff Sky Peaks race in two weeks.
A few low key runs remaining, a few yoga sessions, a massage, a haircut, time spent at @physedkc, diabolical planning with @pigtailultrarunner, and my next adventure awaits amongst the mountains.
Until then, can I tell you a secret?
My body is so, so happy to be done with training miles (for a while...). #trailrunning #training #ultramarathon #running #bocogear #ruhner #runkc #health #fitness
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